I was numb for a while. I couldn’t feel, I couldn’t think. My heart was opened and exposed like it hadn’t been in years. I was scared, I let my insecurities and over thinking ruin me, what could have been. It was gone and it didn’t come back. It wouldn’t come back. The heartache lingered for too long, like nothing has ever before. I don’t know why, but it did. I didn’t want to forget or let it go, but I had to. Then it was gone. Little by little I felt alive, I could feel my heart beat again. And then, once smiles that meant something peeked thru, they were gone. My brain is twisted again and my heartstrings are pulled every which way. Starting to wonder, when will I feel again, why can’t I feel again? Late at night is when I think and share. So here.